Part 4: Following a Crooked Path

"We must let go of the life we have planned, so as to accept the one that is waiting for us."
-- Joseph Campbell

Learning to Shoot Myself

When we discovered that I was pregnant again, I rushed to pick up the heparin and syringes, only to return home completely unprepared for what to do next. My incredible husband, the one wit... [more]

Floating on Air

While I am working more hours than in over a year, I am floating through each day. I walk slowly, even taking breaks along the way, through the hospital's corridors. My lovely job at the Ba... [more]

Oh What a Lucky Woman!

Even though I am not usually of a romantic, sentimental nature, Jim and I actually had a surprisingly "sweet" first anniversary. Most of that, of course, has to do with the baby. ... [more]

Falling from Grace

A few days ago, as other women in wheelchairs were being escorted out of a women's hospital with their balloons and newborns, I was clutching a small stuffed dog as I was wheeled out. I am ... [more]

Science Provides Another Window

I learned the results of our baby's karyotype while I sat at my desk in the tiny clinic office which I share with two other women. "Trisomy 15," the nurse repeated when I asked. ... [more]

Angels Watch As I Age

I am putting away my pregnancy diary, the companion piece to the popular book about expecting which was a well-intended gift from my sister-in-law. I found that it doesn't exactly work for ... [more]

Haunted by Hidden Wounds

As I once again leave my temporary assignment at the children's hospital, I inform my supervisor, a good friend, that I will not return if she calls me again. This last junket working with ... [more]



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