[QUOTE=seattle2012;n2600103] (…) Hopefully baby is doing good, haven’t seen him in 4 weeks… that’s so long. But I can definitly feel he’s growing.
I remember I saw crying when I started the DE process, and I had to wait 5 months before the transfer for my DE availability: it was hell. But today I forgot we used DE, I never think about it. He’s my little baby, he’s growing inside me each day. It’s hard to think otherwise now. And I am at piece. I am just in a hurry to deliver and hold him. LOL It will be your turn too.
Desiree GL for the retrieval.
TOYA!! This forum suck![/QUOTE]
Thanks [B]Seattle[/B]!! I have some news and will be sharing them shortly.
I too struggled with the thought of having to use DE… I so much wanted my baby… but I am now getting more and more used to the fact I wasn’t able to, due to age… my DH regrets for taking so long to come to a decision that we could have had a child of our own. He had vasectomy prior to his divorce, we are married for over a decade now, but at the time of his divorce, he never imagined that he would father a child again. Over the years I was pretty accustomed to that idea, since I too had my own kids in my first marriage. But I tell you… as much as we love our kids and WE DO DEARLY… there’s nothing more frustrating than to raise “half-child” for years and years… not having our own to do whatever we like, and give the child whatever we want, without having to explain everything, justify everything, to deal with ex’s all the time, and then to share our own values, own principles, own faith, without having to tip-toe when these go right against the other set of parents… but again, the thought of having another child never really took place in our hearts until about 6 years ago, and then it was too late, too late for me… Now, I work in my heart every day thinking with excitement about the baby we may have next year and how our gang will love the family’s addition, they are college age now and would be surprised and happy, we know it. They have always begged for a sibling, since their other set of parents had babies too - but it is not for them that we are in this. Years of TTC passed and now we are here… trying. it once more, clearing the last coin in our bucket… because of a deep heart desire that emerged from years of parenting our children half-way. I want to come to a point that I will forget too that the baby won’t have my DNA. And I hope others won’t notice much or ask me about it. We don’t know how to handle the telling-the-child part yet… but it will come to us. I think that these days it is hard to hide everything because of so much new testings out there… DNA testing is frequently used for so many things nowadays. God will lead the way.