Hi, I’m new here and I want to share my story. I was not so good girl at school. I didn’t listen to my mother and i thought I was totally right all the times. When I was 15 I noticed i was pregnant( I felt in love with one boy from high school, he was so cute, i thought it was my first and last love but it wasn’t’ so.) He has forced to get physical with him, I didn’t mind as I loved him. When my mom got to know it she was angry and told me to do an abortion.
After that I got crazy I have leaded a bad way of life and after all I had 3 more abortions. Due to my bad fame I have moved from my native town to Finland where I got a good job and efficient salary. I met a nice man who has changed my life. We have built an excellent family and we really want children, we have an apartment, work, we are wise enough to have our own children. Unfortunately I can’t get pregnant. My third pregnancy has ends with bitter tears, two miscarriages and one frozen pregnancy - surgery and cleaning, terrible physical pain and terrible soul, the fear that I will never become a mother - this is not just fear, it’s horror. I generally ceased to see meaning in my life. And the whole night of tears and regrets about that terrible mistake in all that years.
I really want to have kids but I don’t know what to do… I’m so lost… I’m here in order to find a place for me, a place where I could have a baby. So if you could help me I would b grateful for each word from you